They say 'if you live long enough, you'll make mistakes' well, am just a teenager but I've made mistakes that are...infact there are no words explain the gravity of my mistakes. That statement explains the way of getting rid of careless acts Martha (name changed) got into. Share her story below
Four abortions and a never ending stream of sexually transmitted diseases, that was the mess i got myself into. Just so that you understand, am not a prostitute although i have multiple sex partners, sounds stupid right? Ok, let me rephrase, i don't see myself as one. I wasn't broke, infact my parents provided everything i needed, so what went wrong you might ask? Well, i can only put it this way, i tried it once, nothing horrible to the best of my knowledge happened, my conscience died and that was it. When i found out that i was pregnant for the first time, i was scared but abortion was the only way out cos I didn't want to soil the name of my family. The abortion process was very excruciatingly painful and after that I vowed never to indulge in any form of sexual immorality but a month later after the pains were gone, i was in the beds of men and then i got pregnant but this time around, the abortion wasn't as painful as the first and then came the 3rd and 4th pregnancies and i aborted them.
Today, i live in fear'cos am gonna get married, what if i've damaged my womb, will the babies i killed ever forgive me? Will God forgive me? I live in regrets and i wish i never had that first sex that ended up being the starting point of my journey to destruction.
***Sad story indeed with many lessons attached to it, one thing i gained was that after the 1st one, it becomes easy to do the others so its better to say NO AT THE BEGINNING THAN AT THE MIDDLE when You're already in too deep but that is not to say that you can't stop now even if you're in. With a strong will and Jesus, it's possible and pls don't listen to the lies of the devil, God can and will forgive you, if you ask in prayers.
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